Milestones educated me. I learned why I was doing drugs and so destructively. I dealt with some issues both issues intrinsic to myself and issues due to situations or people that I could not control. I identified other issues, that have not yet been resolved, but I do understand a cause and effect relationship and I understand how these issues have distorted my view or eaten at my “vitality.”
And I learned that I have value….this is something I am still working on, but I do now believe I am a worthy person, really nice, and good hearted. I am feeling more confident, and I feel that I can at least look at the unresolved issues, and stop getting pushed around so much.
AND ON THE SIDE ::::: I do have reminders in many places (car, bathroom, etc) from my destructive days. These are great tools to remind myself that I went to a place that I never want to visit again, i.e. not fall into that trap I had been in for so many years.
Realizing how these issues have affected my development has REALLY helped me feel better about myself and changed the way that I deal with problems etc …I do not remember a time when I felt as good about myself as I do now (not in a narcissistic way), it is like the sun coming out after a long grey winter. Much of this progress is directly attributable to your methods.